Funny Girl

I haven't reflected in writing for the public in a while. Here goes.

Recently I met quite a few new people at school. They seem to like me and the predominate thing they say about me is I'm funny. I really don't think I'm that funny, but I do love to try to make people laugh. I've gotten decently good at making people laugh. Now that I'm considered "funny," I'm not sure how I feel about the title.

If I had a nickel every time someone said that the reason I don't get asked out is because I'm intimidating then I would be very rich. Friends (both girls and guys) always say that I am intimidating for one or more of these three reasons:

1. I am tall
That is true, I am taller than the average female (5'10"). Honestly height difference in the opposite sex never really bothered me. I know that most men do want to be taller than the girl they are dating. What am I, some monstrous buffalo that is too wild and huge to run after? I suppose this is the most legitimate reason for men not to consider me. Men meet me and probably write me off because I am not within a height range that they like. It's fine, we all are attracted to certain types.

2. I exude an aura that I don't need a man/I have a strong personality
That is true as well. I don't ever feel like I need a man to be satisfied with who I am. I found my satisfaction with Christ. If I'm being honest sometimes Christ doesn't feel like enough, but then I'm reminded how humans have failed me and that Christ never has/will ever fail me. It's a comforting thought. I guess I don't understand why confidence and self sufficiency is intimidating. I'm not sure. I've been told that guys want to feel needed and like they're the protector. I've never been a man, so I can't verify this, but it's probably true. I guess I don't need saving. I don't try to act proud at all though. I really want to be humble because I have so much I need to improve in my spiritual walk with God and my personality.
I do have a strong and passionate personality. I sometimes catch myself just speaking my mind without really seeing all sides. My passions are for justice, compassion and peace. I get really upset if someone is apathetic about important things. I need to control my passionate outbursts though. I completely understand how that could be intimidating.

3. Funny girls are intimidating
This is something I was told recently. This bothered me a little bit because it's something I could change. I could not crack jokes and use funny voices. I really enjoy it though, so I don't want to stop. Someone told me that men are used to being the ones who are funniest, so they can get the attention of other women. I'm told that if a girl is funny then a man isn't sure what to do. It's not like they're dumbfounded, but it's almost like the girl becomes one of the guys.

I haven't become "one of the guys" and I don't think I will, but I just don't know what to do with the funny thing. I've been told by several men that I am "the funny one," or the "the wild one," in comparison to other girl friends and my sister. I sort of came to the conclusion that I am the comic relief in the group and not a pretty girl that needs to be impressed with the jokes.
I'm not too sure where this is going, but I wanted to write it down. Maybe I'll look back at this with some better insight later.
Semi-conclusion: I don't want to be an intimidating, comic relief, buffalo. I want to still be funny, but in a more approachable way. I don't want to sound like I'm complaining, but it's just what I've kind of noticed recently. We'll see how it goes.