Trust and control is so scary, but once I give it I know it will be okay

I can't even think of how I, by myself, will be able to do this. I'm really glad I don't have to. I have to rely on God so much. Tonight will be one of some serious praying as well as tomorrow. No one needs to know right now. Don't worry, it's nothing bad. Actually, it's so great, but I can't get ahead of myself. I can't talk about it yet. I need to decide whether or not it needs to happen. If you talk to God, please ask him to help me make the right decision and be able to hear what he needs to tell me.
God be with me these next 24 hours...